Sin does not exist from God’s point of view, because he has either dealt with it in Jesus, or he will deal with it at the “end of time”.
He holds nothing against us, he just loves us. It is we ourselves who retain our sin by not believing it has been removed. If you say you can’t feel that it has been removed, that’s because you are not believing that it has been removed.
Sin cannot exist where there is love, and God has loved us in Jesus. Love overpowers, has overpowered, sin guilt and death.
Not to believe in Jesus is to not believe in the loving forgiving nature of God. Jesus was and is our forgiveness.